Really fill in the blank, like your brain isn’t working, like no one cares, like you are losing your mind, like you are the only one going through this…yep fill in the blank. Today was just a day. Not bad but just meh. So I figured I’d come here and avoid things like cleaning the fish tank which has been acting more like a humidifier lately…I have been adding water frequently. No, no no, its not leaking. It’s dry in here. Which is a good thing because I got my mold test results back and apparently I have mold. So I have to test the house, or not. But whatever…I have to get it out of me. Can I also get the perimenopause out of me as well because between the hormones, the brain fog, the baby lupus stuff I have seriously just reached my max somedays. Today I put on a pair of jeans- nope, took them right off. What the hell happened to my body! Bring it back…Today CNN released an article about erythritol. It can cause heart issues. It was a small study but conclusive and enough to make me mad and sad and frustrated. This was my go to for coffee or treats to bake with since I was diagnosed with diabetes. I changed my A1C got it all back down reversed the diagnosis and now this. Soon I will have to start the auto immune protocol diet, this is no processed foods, no dairy, no sugar, no wheat, basically air right? Living foods only. Can I hire someone to get me through this? A chef, a trainer, a motivator. Throw me a bone. I am not complaining I am frustrated. I know it might sound like it’s complaining…So the fish tank is annoying me because it’s right next to me. I just had a nice conversation with my daughter on the phone though. Oi, the day man…it was also the first day back to work after having the week off…so yeah. I’ll be back tomorrow with a better post. Find your zen folks.