Currently we are in the middle of a widespread pandemic called Covid -19, a version of a Coronavirus. Yeah don’t we all wish it was related to the beer, it’s not. To get myself motivated today (actually I’ve done laundry…) I got out my speaker and put on Danzon no.2 by Arturo Márquez. This song is so loud and busy it’s like candy for your ears. I like the Gustavo Dudamel version. I digress…today’s kitchen conversations were about feeling disconnected, disengaged, disinterested, and sometimes plain lost in your near lack of thoughts or over thinking.
Some days are just better organized than others. Sometimes I make a list and sometimes it works, sometimes it makes me feel like shit when I make a list and don’t do it or don’t do part of it. (Throws hands up in air and shakes head) What can you do? My husband just told me that sometimes the days just don’t work and tomorrow will give you another opportunity. True, tomorrow give me new. I could paint, I could clean, I could organize something, I could walk a dog, I could do yard work ( expect it’s still pretending to be winter here), I could do a lot of things. Some days I just feel nothing, so I wander the house doing nothing. Redonkulous. So…we will get through this. We will become better on the other side. What renovations can we do while we are moving through this unprecedented time?
Take your time. Be kind. When I say be kind, it is in all it’s simplicity. Kindness to yourself will go along way when you need to be kind to others. If your brain has plans for you other than what you had planned, you can either fight it, or take the good with the bad and roll with it. I am in no way saying be lazy, that is not really allowed. Intentions are important, set them when you lay to rest and when you rise. We can also learn to enjoy the beauty each day brings us. Things like the two little sparrows on the sidewalk this morning. Things like the 10 minutes I sat in the warm sun on the patio.
The days bring frustrations with trying to do school work at home. My kids have really struggled with the change in their education. As I am sure many others across America have. It’s simply not ideal. Being in the education system I cannot imagine the heartache the teachers have to teach to the kids and see the facial expressions of them. I am certain they yearn for raised hands with all their inquisitiveness. The teachers cannot be forgotten in all of this either.
The daily struggle doesn’t need to be that if you savor things and show gratitude. Slow down and look around you. Take pride in going slow and doing it so fine when you are done you feel proud and smile. Take a breath, tell someone how much they mean to you, thank the sun for showing up to brighten your day.
This week I made a promise to myself I was going to get up early and try to work out, of course I am beating myself up over it because the first two days of the week the sleep wasn’t there. Both my husband and I slept so terrible Sunday and Monday night. So, slept in and no work out. I am annoyed with me. HOWEVER…I said at least I need to be organized about my week and be productive. So Monday was groceries and post the menu on the fridge. Then being drained from that I went to my bullet journal and worked on my savings chart page. A bullet journal is a great little way to organize your thoughts and goals or track things like your moods. I have a page that is A Year in Pixels, it has a code with colors and each day gets a color depending upon the feelings for that day, and then in one year I can see just how I felt most of the time. Should be interesting. I have a page with a sun and room to list things that I love. I have the savings tracker page, which is various things we are saving for. This journal is something that can be done daily or when you feel like tending to it. Check them out, there is a ton of suggestions on Pinterest. Today I moved rocks to the backyard for a garden around the oak tree. I also started all my seed, albeit very late, but they are started. Zinnias and sunflowers and some other odd ball things.
We just can’t be too hard on ourselves right now because nothing in our world is normal. It won’t be for quite sometime. If we can just roll with it and savor the moments, we will be all that better on the other side. Everyday has a silver lining, every week has a rainbow, every month has a tide. Preserver, press on, you got this, we got this.