When you have had a “day”, what do you do for yourself? I am surrounded by my dogs, one of my cats, in my flannel pajamas and decided to write. I need to do this. I need to do this for me, to get it out of my head, to try to organize my mind and thoughts. I like background noise or distraction too, for when I need to stop and take a breath and look up. When I need a distraction it has to be something half interesting to me…This is a pretty cool show. Flavorful Origins, check it out. I find that these distractions, whether I am writing or need it during the day while I do other tasks, they soothe me. They sooth the chaos that runs rampant in my mind. Sometimes I feel it coursing through my veins. Today started out fine, in fact it was all great until about later afternoon. Why did I have to check business email before I went into Target? Why? Two emails that frustrated me to the point that if there was anyone near the car they would’ve heard me yelling. What came out of my mouth wasn’t positive. Normally it would’ve been curse words as I swear like a well versed truck driver or sailor. It was not. Frankly I don’t even want to write what I said but I feel it will help you, the reader understand the whole picture and maybe feel the frustrations. “I hate them all.” I yelled it more than three times. Why was I even counting while I was yelling, then I lost count. This past week I have needed multiple distractions just to have background while I try to concentrate on something. It’s been audio books, podcasts, and all kinds of music. I generally end up putting on familiar cello music. The cello soothes me like nothing else. I cannot wait to put more of the story on this blog. It gives me something to focus on when things don’t seem to be moving or I get annoying emails that are repetitive and asking for things that don’t make sense. This will all be done soon, there is sun on the horizon. This is not going to be the rest of my life, I will not let this define me. I will grow and change from all of this. Some days are hard and you have to eat a do-nut though. Swear on sailors.