Have you been waiting? Waiting for someone, or something. Something leaves a very big window for waiting. I remember waiting back in 2011 in an office for a chef coat. I remember waiting for the class to start. I also remember waiting for the big opening day. That waiting doesn’t compare to the waiting lately for sure.

In 2010 my husband and I decided we wanted to start our own business. It was our dream to own something together. It was our dream to work side by side with each other in this. It was our dream to make this business what gave our family income or paid for college or paid our bills or paid for family vacations. This was our hopes and dreams. We had a few business ideas. An American made mountain bike company was an option we looked into. A unique line of running clothes for women, which if you saw the designs…you’d be in line waiting…a doggy day care and a doggy wash center, like a laundromat but for dogs. They all would’ve been a wonderful adventure, for the mere fact that I would be by the man that I love with my whole being. We chose to open a unique little store that was food related and was high end. I went to culinary school and learned a little about the trade and the rest I taught myself. He had the big business degree. We had two little kids at the time and they were eager to help.

Your typical person probably doesn’t know what goes into starting a business, I had no idea but I was about to find out. Waiting for the banks, waiting for the permits, waiting for the contractors who are seemingly never on time. Waiting for paint to dry in the 480 square foot space we would call home for almost five years. After I painted I was waiting for the carpel tunnel to go away, turns out you need not wait, it gets worse. (and by now if you haven’t caught on I always carry a twang of sarcasm with me) Then somehow we were waiting for the people on opening day. I can remember how exhausted we were. It was right up there with new born baby exhaustion. I can also recall the excitement and drive we had back then. We were giddy to have people come to see the place and the items we created. The day came and went like the typical Christmas morning flash. We went home and began again the next day. This was in the early fall of 2011. We had no idea what was coming down the pike, and looking back now, I am proud of us.

Our plan was for me to work in the shop and for my husband to work his regular job for a certain number of years until we were able to get income from our business. We had two little kids and we had bills at home and also a need for quality healthcare. So there was a plan. In late fall my husband was laid off. This began one of the scariest times in our life. He put most of his time into finding another job. He is in a very competitive industry and at the time many companies were laying off so the pool of people looking for jobs was flooded. He worked for over two months to find a job, also worked with me in the shop. I am not good at recalling time periods of events like this that happened specifically in my household, it’s probably a coping mechanism. He didn’t get a job for several months after he was laid off. It was devastating to him. I knew he would find another. He did. It was a true gift. This gift had on exception. It only provided us with half of what he was making before. These are the things that no one sees. These are the things that no one talks about. All this while, we had just opened our own business. We took out bank loans and regrettably took out, well, lets say we took out an amount equal to a nice three row SUV( with all the bells and whistles) out of his retirement. In another post I will tell you NOT to do that. Things were getting tight at home. The business was at a spot where it was doing okay, but not enough to give us any money at that stage in the game. We ended up refinancing our house. Which actually looking at the mortgage balance now wasn’t such a bad thing. He eventually found another company and got a way better paying job. We went on with our life and our business.

But wait, there is more. This blog will be the rest of our story. The days, months, and years leading up to this day right now waiting. Waiting. This waiting is nothing compared to waiting I have done in the past. So I will leave you with this…

If you must wait, clear your head. Think clean thoughts. Say kind words. Think about what you are waiting for in a positive way, let no negativity in. stay tuned and lets see if it works.