Woah…you’ll never believe what happened last week! Logged on, well, tried to log on to this- my blog- and it had expired. Screeching tires, crashing glass, screams, fog horns, and swear words galore…So, I worked tirelessly with the host company, and they were amazing and got it all back up and running. Not without a few kinks along the way, but hey- here we are! So many things have happened…I am not even sure where to start…
Per usual, I went back and read like the last three posts… poignant posts…I had to laugh in February, I posted I had applied to like 25 jobs…I am way over 100 at this point. I apply to two to five jobs a week. I have taken several breaks for my mental health in there. It’s a lot, constructing the resumes for each job and the cover letters for each one. Trying to network on LinkedIn with people to help me get the jobs, and getting ghosted or ignored. It’s all contributing to making me a stronger person, no doubt, and I will find my place; it’s just going to be a painful, long process. I knew that, though. Just this week, I sent out three. Do I ever hear back…not typically. Yep, you read that right. Occasionally, I get the standard rejection email, but even those are rare. I got one last week for a job I applied to in January. I just laughed.
Does it have to do with my age? Maybe. How about the fact that I am a woman, yep. I was even told by a manager that I would have to work twice as hard to get in and twice as hard once I got the job. I wanted to say “buddy, you have no idea who you are talking to”…and actually I might remind him of that next time I text him… Maybe I should do it the old-fashioned way and mail things to HR…lol…scratches head and thinks a minute…
I am going to call it a night, I am done with screen for the day…however, this time I will leave the tab on my computer so I come back.
Still doing my nightly meditation when I go to sleep, I added a little something extra in when I feel like I collected too much of others’ energy…When I say the second line about letting go of negative and toxic energy, I picture it all exploding off my skin like little bubbles flying out into the night sky and popping and turning into stardust.
Goals- practice gratitude and patience.