Well, again I haven’t been here in such a long time, my apologies. It’s been such an interesting many months. In January I began a new quest. This quest began because I felt life. That probably sounds strange, like didn’t she feel alive before or feel anything before? Something started clicking within me during the late fall into December. I was sick for the past few years as I have mentioned on here. So much ridiculousness, so many doctor visits, so many blood tests, so many symptoms, it was all just a lot for a long time. I probably mentioned on here that I took the summer slowly, at the time I felt like I was wasting it.
When you intentionally go slow for yourself I guess it’s not wasting time. So during the fall, I thought about it and I felt my body feeling better. I felt better than I had in a VERY long time. The rheumatologist even released me, my inflammatory blood markers were in a normal range. There are still a few minor things that are not quite right but like I said, I feel so much better. The new quest in January was to find a job I am passionate about. It’s time for a change, it’s time to do something meaningful to myself. I will miss my hours of 715-215 for sure, and the things I am looking at sometimes you have to be on-call. I have done that before. I have probably sent out close to 25 resumes and applications since January. Only to things that interest me though. Two weeks ago I had an interview with a recruiter for a company I am deeply wanting to work for. She liked me and it went well, so she forwarded me to the next step which is a manager interview. I had that this afternoon. About a week ago I had the same kind of interview face to face with another company that does the same thing and that went well I think. Today was a Teams meeting and the manager was driving and then had to turn the video off for the last half of the call. I want to say it went well, but I couldn’t see his face and read it because I only had his voice. He told me I would hear from him or the recruiter by the end of the week. I signed off the phone call asking if I could share a quote I saw today with him. I found this on Instagram and the account is live-elevate_ “The difference between ice and water is one degree. What if you were one step away from the life you want? Don’t give up on it.” I loved it and thought it resonated with my point that I want to work for this company. I can do hard things again, today was nerve-racking but it was exhilarating at the same time. I couldn’t have done this 2 years ago. I couldn’t have done any of this. I am so proud of myself. Good job honey- you got this. I know I have a lot to contribute to this world, I want to go out and make a difference in people’s lives, whoever that may be. So hopefully I will come back with some good news in the next few weeks or months. In the meantime join me with my nightly meditations-
1- Deep breath in, and out…I am grateful for all the blessings big and small and the ones I did not notice at all.
2- Deep breath in, and out…I let go of any negative and toxic feelings from the day, they do not serve me in any way.
3- I got to sleep and wake in the morning ready to receive abundance peace and clarity. Everything is aligning for my greater good and I am worthy of abundance.
Peace out.